Twelve months ago I didnt know. I didnt know how my life would be so different now. I didnt know the sound of your voice. I didnt know the sound of your breathing or the sound of your yawn. I didnt know that sound that lights up the entire world, your laugh. And I definitely did know the sound of your meal time screeching (yikes!). I didn't know those dimples and that tiny chin and your chubby cheeks and your blue eyes. Boy do I love those eyes.
Twelve Months ago today my life was completely different. I hadnt met you yet. How is it even possible that tomorrow you will be one year old? I have held you, rocked you, felt you, fed you, squeezed you, kissed you, and loved you every moment of every day for the last 364 days and its hard to remember what life was like before you were born. You are part of who I am and I dont know what it feels like to not have you around. I just know I feel more complete now than I have ever felt before. I keep telling myself you are my teeny tiny little bitty itty bitty baby boy, but the fact is, tomorrow is your first birthday and this year has flew by too fast.
Twelve months ago today I knew you were coming because I was being induced the next morning. Twelve months ago today was a Sunday. Daddy and I double checked our hospital bags and made sure we had everything we thought we would need. We had dinner together, the last dinner as a family of two. I dont remember what we ate but after that we watched impractical jokers on the television. Twelve months ago today we slept on the couch because we were too nervous to go to bed. And because you kept bouncing on my bladder and I just couldnt bring myself to do the steps all night long.
Twelve months ago I couldn't wait to meet you. I always told myself I would never 'wish this baby was out of me' (or something like that that women always say). I never thought I would get to have a baby or carry a baby so I knew I would never wish you out of my belly. As sick as I was all those months and as much as you tried to break my ribs, I knew I was the luckiest mommy in the whole world to have you in my belly and I would never wish for that to end.
From day one I have loved every second of life. Even the nights where I didnt think you would ever stop nursing or the days that you just want to be held. So tonight, when you are awake and crying about your teeth, I will cherish every single second because I know some day you wont want to be held anymore. I will take a picture in my mind, like I have every single time before and I will burn that in to my memory so that I never ever forget one single moment. Because before I know it, another year will be flying by just like this one.
In less than a day, you will be one. One whole year with us as your parents. Thank you for making our life so wonderfully complete.
It has been over a year since I have posted. Before that, I said time and time again, that I would make more of an effort to post more. I truly intended too!
I really do have a wonderful reason!
After a couple miscarriages, some struggles, and a round of clomid, I got pregnant with our rainbow baby!!!
In the beginning, I told my best friend that I couldn't wait for morning sickness. I know God was listening because he graced me with morning sickness alright.... for the ENTIRE pregnancy. I was sick all the time. I threw up every. single. morning. And randomly throughout the day!
The fear of miscarrying never truly left me and I was pretty fearful to even start on a nursery or pick a name until well in to the second trimester. But everything went well and my love is now playing at my feet as I type this. #BLESSED !!!!
I always thought I wouldnt do a gender reveal but after all of our troubles I wanted to celebrate EVERYTHING so I will start with photos of my gender reveal....
Here we go!!!
The theme was Ice Cream Social ("What's The Scoop with Baby Obetts")...
Ironic considering I couldnt eat ice cream because it made me sick (insert cry emoji here)
It was July 24, 2016 and about a billion degrees outside.
I loved our voting system. If you thought I was having a girl, you added a pink scoop of ice cream and if you thought I was having a boy you add a blue scoop. People that couldnt come to the party called in their vote,
We didn't find out the gender at my appointment, I wanted to find out with everyone else. I think its more fun that way. Our party was 3 days after my appointment. LONGEST 3 DAYS EVER!
I had ordered confetti canons online, two that shot out pink, and two that shot out blue.. They were both the same on the outside except for a tiny code. I asked my friend Amanda to be the one to look in the envelope and get the canons ready for us.
After having a couple miscarriages, I honestly didnt care what we were having. I would have been happy no matter what color shot from those canons.
I didnt care if it was pink or blue. BUT I thought it would be pink... I was so shocked to see blue!!!
When I saw the blue a flood of emotions came over over me.
I was finally able to be excited and picture the future. I was able to let go of (some) of the fear and anxiety I had over miscarrying and celebrate the fact that I was now going to have a precious little baby. I cant even really put in to words everything I was feeling.
I could cry right now just remembering how it felt.
Let me know in the comments below if you have ever had a gender reveal and how you celebrated! Were you as surprised as I was?
In my next post I will post my maternity pictures, taken by my sister Miranda. She did great!
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